A new upload of this video dedicated to my first (almost) teenage rite of passage and the great Joe jackson – the soundscape of that time.
The song was recorded and produced at Clowns pocket studios in Kent, by the mighty Phil Scragg. Featuring Andy Bratt on drums, Phil on bass and me on everything else.
The video was recorded and produced by the great Matt Ottewill. He has just released a lovely album called Songs Sung and thereis a hand drawn video from that on his excellent multimedia forum/site planetoftunes.com.
The star of the video is a wonderful young actress called Hannah who is wearing a wig and her very obliging boyfriend whose name eludes me – he is pretending to be young me and doing a fine job. But she was excellent; the camera really loved her – and her evocative performance is so like the girl in my memory – flirtatious, funny, dangerous and finally lost…
Despite the few thousand hits for the last version, I didnt do all these great people (or myself) justice with my skanky upload skills. Hence the reload on this excellent site.
For contact details of any of the people mentioned, feel free to message me.
Ok, so here he is again. She told him not to come at night. Mum says he’s not allowed to come at night, but he says he has to.
“You’re not allowed.”
See. That’s what he’s like. Sometimes she’s not even sure why he’s her friend. Or if he is her friend. Mum says she should play with the girls at school – that they should be her friends. She doesn’t think Mum likes him.
“I can’t. I am in my nightie. It’s too late. I’m not allowed.”
He looks at her with those eyes.
“Ok. ok.” She knows he won’t shut up. And if she’s going to get any sleep at all she’d better go with him.
She grabs her dressing gown and slips on her slippers. (They are made out of her name: a big pink J for Jennifer.) Takes his hand – not really.
Then steps through the window.
“Was that actually open?” she asks, as they walk across the moonlit lawn two stories below.
He smiles and walks ahead.
She sticks her tongue out at his back, but follows him as they cross the new tarmac of Crescent avenue and head towards the woods that back onto the old railway track. Mr Mcdonnell’s cat is coming down the middle of the road like she owns the place; her name is Betty.
“Hello Betty.” She bends down to greet the cat, but it shies away with a rude hiss. Jenny hisses back; then shuffles quickly on to catch up. She should have worn her trainers; would have, if he’d told her they were going to the woods. Thinks he’s all big and that, being all mysterious n that. He’s not that much bigger than her. She could probably beat him up… if she wanted to. She pulled Jilly Morrisson’s hair at school the other day and made her cry. She catches up and punches where his arm is.
“Slow down, Cheese and onion head.”
He frowns, stops for a moment, rubs at his arm as though it hurts. Then smiles at her, reminding her how much she loves him, and says – you guessed it:
“Poo poo head,” she laughs, punching at his arm again as she skips along beside him.
“Bread and butter and bogey head.”
“Wee wee and willy head..”
She has to bend down under a branch as they head into the woods. He never has to bend down; he is already five yards ahead, his feet making no sound like a Red Indian – her’s crunching the dry twigs and ferns and stuff on the ground. It’s been really hot and hasn’t rained for ages. Dad says they should water the lawn more often. And that he spent a lot of time making that lawn nice and the least mum could do is water the bloody grass every now and then. And that if he stilled lived there, he’d bloody do it. But she tells him he shouldn’t swear in front of her – she’s only a little girl. And he say’s yes he knows that and that she’s his little angel and that she knows he would never let anyone do anything bad to her, doesn’t she?…
The boy has stopped. They are somewhere that they haven’t been before: the ground is a bit silvery and the trees seem to have been pushed out of the way to make a proper circle.
He turns to her as though proud of something.
Ok,” she says, and smiles at him:
“For the last time Jennifer. Come down and have some breakfast. You’ll be late… again.”
Mum is puffing as she slopes up the stairs in her slippers. She hates being this fat. Her legs ach; there are ugly new veins running down them, and her bum is like a half inflated beach ball. She probably needs the loo… surprise, surprise.
She gains the top of the stairs, huffs a couple of times, and then clumps across the landing to bang open the bedroom door: “JENNY’S ROOM” it says, in pink of course, to match her daughter’s pale skin and fiery hair. Jenny has underlined the words in felt tip pen and put a wobbly exclamation mark at the end. Fat chance that defense is going to work.
“For the last time…”
And then she can’t be angry at all. Her little girl: a bewildered lump in her mess of bedclothes, sitting up and rubbing her eyes, amazed at yet another sunny morning. Light streaming in through the half open curtains – that Mrs Shilling knows she closed last night. Like a precious ambassador from another world, every day a new arrival.
Where have you been? thinks the mother. Where did you come from? How long do I get to keep you?
She shakes such thoughts from her head. She gets so weepy and dreamy when she is pregnant. She really needs to pee.
She smiles at the beautiful child. Really bad parenting, can’t even pretend to be angry; she’ll be a nightmare princess brat. No she won’t.
There you go again; little alien. Not good morning, but hello. Not goodnight, but good by-
No! Stop that; stupid head.
“Morning, Sweet pea. I’ve been shouting. Didn’t your alarm go off?”
“Don’t know… Maybe. Am I late again?”
“Not far off. Are you going to be good for your old mum, and get up and washed and ready really fast so the school won’t send another one of those letters?”
Jenny starts to untangle herself from the duvet, nodding all the time, as though to shrug off the jetlag.
“Yes, Mum. I will. I’m up…”
She ruffles her daughter’s hair, and then hurries away to deal with her ridiculous bladder. The little girl pulls off her nightie as the door closes, and there are scratch marks on her arms again and across her belly. Oops.
Sumo-ing onto the seat to wait. For the pathetic trickle that implies a waterfall. Sighing in relief. A moment of peace, but something is still itching in her dreamy head: Her daughter’s hair. Did a leaf fall out?
“Do you eat anything?”
They are walking down the old railway track. It’s a sunny day, but he would be wearing his red T-shirt and slacker shorts whatever weather it was. He smiles at her and she frowns back.
“Answer the bloody question, sausage head. Do you eat anything?”
He speeds up a bit as though in a hurry to get to the next station before the train comes along.
“There aren’t any trains, dim dum. It’s all grown over and weedy. How can there be any trains?”
He shrugs: There’s trains.
He’s so silly. Now he leaps to the side of the track and lands on his bum – where the ground is. She laughs and he smiles too as he gets to his feet – brushing at his clothes where the leaves and dirt aren’t – and gets back in front of her, moving forward into the sun-haze.
She pulls her half eaten peanut butter and cucumber sandwich from her pocket and runs after him, holding it in front of her with a jutting arm.
“Eat it!” she laughs. “Eat it!”
He picks up his pace, looking back in comical alarm as they pass the old station at speed. The platform is broken and rounded off at the edges – all mossy and planty. And there’s a new sign by the remains of the fire-blackened ticket hall, saying this is the property of So and So and is proposed for development of Something or other. She doesn’t read it.
He wants to get off the track. She knows he does. He doesn’t like it, makes him nervous. Tough luck; they always do what he wants. This is her day out.
“Oh alright, Sausage head. Scaredy baby head. We can get off. It runs out at the farm anyway.”
He looks confused.
“Yes it does!” Honestly, why does he have to argue with her about everything?
They head into the trees and walk for a while. She nibbles her sandwich as they trudge along in the easy quiet of old friends. Then she climbs the stile and joins him in the thick grass as he sits down.
He reaches for her sandwich. She pulls it quickly back and laughs; there isn’t much left. Anyway he had his chance. Anyway he wouldn’t bloody eat it – he’s only messing around. She holds it out again. And he shrugs and laughs and sticks his tongue out, keeping his arms by his side. See.
“What’s your name?” she asks, laughing too.
“Where do you live?”
“What’s your mummy called?”
“Whose your best friend?”
She always asks that question last, because that’s the one he answers. Resting his head where her lap is. Her fingers twirling between the locks of his curly brown hair – making no more sense of the mess than was already attempted. Looking down onto the few freckles across his nose and his sea green eyes – or are they blue: Do you eat anything?
This is the proper version of our christmas single. All mixed and saxophoned and Choired.
Indie legend (at least to us), Trevor Blackman has just finished our video – heavily influenced by the legendary 70′s Crosby and Bowie christmas special. (more…)
(I’m speaking golf
And you can’t stop me
I’m on the fourth hole
With my club around a tree)
It wasn’t my fault
And I didn’t mean for it to break
But when you’re flying towards the green
You shouldn’t end up in the lake
I’ve got a face like pudding
Collecting pieces of me baton
Can’t see the birds upon the wing
And that the sun has put his hat on.
‘Look Ronan’s got a birdie!’
Is friend Andy’s chirping ‘buck-up’
But I’m eighteen over par
and a hobbling moaning ‘+++ck-up’
I trudge along behind
as they saunter on in glory,
and mutter to the lord above,
“How you must you deplore me?
Why must my tools be such ill fit
And balls so small and puny
Where others clip and sail serene
Why do you do this to me?”
I fat and thin and sway and lurch
And attempt pro-bought solutions;
Through gritted fists I’ll make this work
Come the day of revolutions.
As friends and sunshine fade
Behind dark veils of affliction,
I plot to make the bastards pay –
when ever-gone both Lurch and Sway
and gentlest hands caress the blade…
Of finest golfing diction.
Have just finished our christmas single. This is probably the finished version… we think it may.. may… may just be a bleedin classic!! Click HERE: Taken In For Christmas – MAITLAND & PALMER
There is no such thing as luck. How can there be? How can there be an intangible element that floats around us, lands upon one person and not another – stays there for a miraculous while, and then floats away to bequeath its gift to another? If there is luck, then there may as well be Father Christmas, there may as well be fairies at the bottom of the garden – to capture on a brownstone camera in sepia; fat Americans may as well have been lifted from their reinforced beds in the middle of the night by antigravity rays and whisked off to hovering spacecraft for sexually related scientific investigation. We have split the atom and defined the human genome. We have equations for all things. If there is luck, there may as well be a vengeful God; terrorists evaporating from the stomach out, are actually – would you believe it? – heading for soft clouds and multiple virgins, Allah be praised.
There is and can be no such thing as luck.
I have just returned to the table to shake the hand of the large tattooed man to my right. He raised in the small blind, I cunningly called with my ‘good poker’ and low connectors in the big blind, hit two pair on the flop, re-raised his top pair hit all-in and then flounced off in a huff when the board paired Jacks to give him an unlikely victory. All my chips, and a parting ‘Nothing like luck in poker,’ from the bitter loser. To which he replied…. well he is a big fella with tattoos, you can imagine what he replied.
Anyway I have just re-bought for another 50 quid and returned to his table to shake his hand. Not because – as he suggests – I think he is gonna beat me up, but because I am trying, really trying not to be the sort of whining loser I hate. Just because you should have won, doesn’t give you the right to be an ugly human being. He shakes my hand loosely first, then beckons me back for a second more meaningful shake and a comment of appreciation at my manners. Kharma fixed, I head for my new table with a spring in my step; Texas Holdem will ruin your life if you let it. I am working on this and other issues.
One hour later I am busted out again. All in, short stacked, with AJ against QJ and A9. The QJ guy had just finished telling me what I did wrong in the last hand and I had just finished telling him to keep his opinions to himself. He has been calling and winning everything – with any two cards. We turn our cards over with five to come: Flop and then turn and then river. He tells me that he is going to hit the queen – his only out. I tell him I have no doubt at all that he will. The flop comes. He hits the Queen. Even though I am ready for it, there is no stopping my ugly mouth; ‘Nothing I can do about luck like that,’ it whines, before flouncing away with the rest of my body.
I don’t return to shake hands and apologise to this chap for two reasons: A he is a smug prick, B what’s the point of apologising for something when you just do it again: “Can’t tell you how bad I feel about gassing your children Mrs Goldstein, now would you be so kind as to tell me where your cousin lives?”
I take my bad Kharma and a cup of tea upstairs to the computer area of the Big Slick Poker club, on this over-lit, chav-heavy Saturday night, and proceed quite rightly to lose a decent portion of my online bank roll to ‘bad beats’ – hands the odds say I should win – and then of course to wild eyed, spinning-brained bad play.
Thank god my friend Fireman Mark gets busted out too and comes and rescues me. We leave at a very respectable 12 30 (leaving at respectable hour is not such a good thing in a poker tournament), his tail, far less of a leg problem than mine.
We drive back through night-lit south London. Past emptying pubs and the postscript of people who have done other things. And he talks to me of his time serving in the army in Ireland and the Middle east, and of people he has cut out of cars in the fire service. And we talk about the beats we had tonight. And we talk about the government and the world and how we live our lives. And by the time I drop him home I am OK. I lost some money. That happens; other people lose far more. But for one brief moment I behaved like a gentleman, like Barry Greenstein or Daniel Negreanu. And that, for now, at one thirty in the rainy morning in October 2010, will have to do.
This was for a show called Where its at. They found me from a magazine called The New Writer, who had recomended me as an upcoming poet.. how nice.. This one relates to my new day job at the time of Career advisor to out of work musicians…an irony I was attempting to elucidate..
Hurry hurry. Buy me new single, produced by badger-haired Tim Palmer from Kent (he can’t help it). Video is here on me website and on you tube. Will put a link below to the youtube page of the excellent video maker Trevor Blackman where the video was born and lives still. It’s vaguely connected to the recent London Riots – in amongst other silliness. Hope you like it. If you can’t afford 70p for the download, let me know and I’ll see if I can rustle up an mp3 – but please bear in mind, the boys do need paying.
Buy it here for now